I am days away from boarding a plane to, you guessed it, Texas. This will be my second visit to the state in less than three months. It will seem crazy to everyone who hasn't yet heard. Aren't I working? Where is this coming from?
I am blessed beyond comprehension as I get to be a part of my best friend's graduation ceremony in Abilene. I am also blessed to have the most open minded, most generous parents as well as an uncanny ability to get rebated tickets on American Airlines by voluntarily being bumped off of my connecting flights out of Miami International. Hopefully this will happen again, on my return home :D. Today, as my mum bought me the ticket I had a moment of thinking "I absolutely don't deserve this!" but then I also thought but what good gifts are given that are truly deserved? Most people give great gifts as a reflection of how much they care about the recipient, it is very rare that someone gets a gift that is in perfect proportion to the effort, in some way, that they exerted earlier. It is usually the case that a great deed cannot be sufficiently rewarded with a gift, or simply, is not.
Anyway, I got through my guilty feelings for being unemployed and in my parents house all of these months, having JUST been to Texas in May to go again to just have fun and see my friends before my job really started (in September), and I remembered my last post. On Sunday I wrote about the idea of nothing being new unless we, the experiencing individual, made it so. I have been struggling through the idea of routine, boring, predictable life; literally struggling through that and I realised this afternoon that this is one of the ways I am making my life experiences new. I have a month to kill before work starts, I have friends I'd love to see again, and this is what I'd like to do with this time. I'm making it new. "What did you do with your last month of freedom?"
I went to Texas.
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